Return to Yesterday is an intense story about a husband who wants his young wife back while she is determined against further emotional devastation. Catlin married her husband when she was only 17 – he was 26 and widowed with a young daughter, Jennifer, – just before her father died. She was deeply in love with her husband Conal but far too young to be his wife and unable to cope with his high powered, upper echelon Auckland society life. She found him in bed with another woman. That night she called him every name she could and he got angry and assaulted her, raped/forcibly seduced her. She ran away to Australia.
The story opens 6 years later when she wants Conal, as her trustee, to release funds so she can buy a small bookshop, and he insists she return to Auckland before he will even consider it. Conal has her come to his home where he works to inveigle her into resuming their marriage.
Plot Synopsis – Click to Skip Spoilers
There is not a lot of plot here. Essentially the story is how Conal convinces Catlin to come back to him permanently as she struggles to understand her own emotions.
Robyn Donald tells us what happened 6 years prior via Catlin’s memories. She never understood why Conal married her in the first place. Catlin lived on a remote sheep station in New Zealand’s South Island and was not ready to be anyone’s wife, much less a successful, rich, handsome, brilliant and cold man’s. Conal initially treated her well, almost as a loved young sister, but over time got impatient with her inability to adapt, and his mother did everything she could to undermine the marriage and destroy Catlin’s confidence. He seemed to think she was stupid, gauche, unattractive. He didn’t sleep with her. Instead his friends made sly comments and his mistress acted proprietorial, effectively shutting Catlin out.
One afternoon she drove to Conal’s beach house to find out how she could improve. She walked in Conal and his girlfriend in bed, left before they could see her. That night she went into his room and yelled at him, furious and hurt. Conal sexually assaulted her, although it turned into passion for both of them. That frightened Catlin and she left the next morning, saw a lawyer, went to Australia and concentrated on turning herself into everything Conal thought she was not.
Six years later Catlin is educated, articulate, well-dressed, attractive, poised and confident. She believes she is well able to deal with Conal and comes back to Auckland to discuss the bookshop purchase.
Once Conal has her back in his home he turns on the charm. His mother has a mild heart attack and Conal asks Catlin to stay and help him with his daughter, now 9. Catlin and his daughter become friends and Catlin realizes she loves Conal more than ever but she doesn’t trust him.
Conal tries to seduce Catlin several times, then when she’s finally willing, says that he won’t make love until she agrees to come back to him. They have a near-miss car accident and Catlin decides she would rather live with Conal, even if he doesn’t love her, than without him. He takes her sailing up to his cottage and they make love and have the final resolution.
Characters and Emotions
The crux of the book depends on why Conal wants Catlin back. Catlin thinks it might be:
- Conal wants to pay her back for leaving him, embarrassing him and causing worry.
- He would like a wife and thinks it’s easier to keep the new improved Catlin than find someone else. His daughter Jennifer needs a mom and his mother isn’t up to caring for her.
- He wants to get rid of his ex and fend off the many women who chase him.
- Lust
Catlin believes it’s a combination of all 4 reasons, mostly #2 and #4, practicality and lust. She never suspects he loves her. Conal doesn’t help matters. He threatens physical retribution when she angers him. Catlin realizes Conal would never hurt her and forgives the cruel comment.
There are some clues though: He lets her get rid of his other women, past and wanna-be lovers. He lets her believe her father’s estate provided her income, before his mother informs Catlin that Conal provides the funds that she lives on. He tells Jennifer that he wants Catlin back. He encourages the growing liking and trust between Jennifer and Catlin. He tells Catlin several times he wants her back. He tries to buy her gifts, takes her out, ensures his friends see her now and realize how Catlin has grown. When Catlin confronts him about providing her income Conal tells her that he made the best investment possible by helping her grow into a confident, educated, beautiful woman.
Catlin of course is afraid to believe Conal. When they finally make love in the grass at his cottage she dares to believe he feels something, but she has to challenge Conal with his feelings before he tells her he loves her.
Catlin is an excellent character but it is Conal who carries the book. Catlin describes him as cold, brilliant, ruthless, charming, an intriguing combination! When she sees him first in her Auckland hotel Catlin wants to feel indifferent, tells herself for a couple weeks that she is over him, that it had been infatuation. Conal works to get her back, first, back in his bed and second, back in his life for all time. (Of course it’s a Harlequin Presents so we expect a happy ending, but how will they get there?)
There are several minor characters, the ex-Other Woman, the wanna-be OW, daughter Jennifer, Conal’s mother, Conal’s friends, Catlin’s old friend, her current roommate, the kinda-OM whose sister is the wanna-be OW. All of these have distinct characters, more than foils for dialogue.
Setting
Return to Yesterday begins in a Sydney apartment, moves to Auckland hotel, then to Conal’s warm and beautiful home in Auckland suburb, several friends’ homes, restaurants, last Conal’s yacht and beach cottage. Author Donald describes the settings and helps us see why Conal’s home is so beautiful and how Catlin could have felt overwhelmed 6 years past. Conal’s mother decorated Catlin’s room in a rather overpowering style that didn’t fit with the rest of the gracious combination of antiques and good contemporary furniture. The settings enhance the story.
Overall
I didn’t like Return to Yesterday when I first read it, but when I re-read it to write this review I realized how well Robyn Donald created her believable characters and plot, how she wrote emotional conflict and tension that crest right at the perfect point in the story. Pacing and language are good.
The bad points are very bad. He raped/forcibly seduced her 6 years ago, he threatens to do it again now. She was a very young, innocent 17 when they married; he says now he married her because he wanted to drag her off to bed every time saw her. Ick. He could have helped her find a place to live in Auckland and get an education, grow up, before he courted her, but he didn’t.
I still don’t enjoy reading Return to Yesterday and probably won’t re-read, but do admire how well Robyn Donald handled the back story and the emotional growth for both characters.
It’s hard to rate a book when I don’t much like it but realize is well-written and has a good story and character development. 3 Stars is a bit of cop out, but it’s either 1 for the ick factor or 4 for the story.
3 Stars
I got my paperback copy from Thriftbooks. Amazon has used copies and most likely you can find this on eBay or other used book site.